BIG scarry changes!!

So I have made some really big decisions over the past few days. About a week ago I was fed up with everything here, so I called Becki and told here that I am just going to up and leave to Montana. Well I prayed about things that night and asked for guidance and peace of mind. Well a couple of days past and lots of crazy things happen one thing lead to another and I am moving to Montana!!! Yeah I know I totally sound crazy. But to tell you the truth I have not had peace of mind about ANYTHING through all this time that everything has been going on with me and Nick as I do now. It just feels so right, and everything is just falling into place. I already have a house over there and probably a job. Things here are just too painful and the memories are too much for me right now. I think it will be great for the kids to have there cousins back in their life. Everything has been rip out from under them their house they were use to, all there friends, and their dad. They are just so confused and need there mom to be sound and secure and this is the best way possible. Kadyn will start preschool as soon as we get there and Austin will start next year. The kids don't really understand anything that is going on I am just trying to make sure that they always know that their mom and dad love them so much. Taking the kids far away from Nick will be the hardest thing that I have ever had to do!!!!! I will probably cry the whole trip there and for weeks after I get there. The only thing that is going to get me through it and help me to see that this is what is best is when I start to heal. It has been three months since everything happened with me and Nick and I am still hurting just as much as the first day it all happened. I can't heal here there is just way to much DRAMA and resentful feelings. I will miss everyone here so very much and will be very excited when I get to make trips back to Oregon. You have all been such a great support system through this all, and I want everyone to know that I could not have gotten through these last 3 months without you. I love you and will miss you all!!!!