Twilight!!

Okay so I decided I needed to find something to preoccupied my time, so I started the Twilight series. I have never liked to read, but I was wrong I found a new favorite hobby!!! Or maybe it is that I just totally fell in LOVE with Edward!! I read the first book in 2 days and I am going to start the second one tonight!! I can't wait until the movie comes out, I among I am sure millions of others will be the first in line!! I just hope the next three are as good as the first one! Now I too have my fantasy life I get to escape to whenever possible!!!!

Life sucks!!!

So today has been close to the wrost day I have had since my life got turned upside down. I found out today that Nick has been telling people really really really awful things about me behind my back, that are completely unture!! He is a very hurtful person that has no remorse for what he has put his family through. So after I found out about all this stuff Nick had been saying and had an awful day I got home and found out more bad news!!!! Just one more thing in my life has went down the tube, I am no longer moving to Montana!!! Long story and I am not going to go into detail, I will just say I was very excited about the move but I guess some things are just not meant to be. I am not sure what will happen with my life now!! I have nothing going for me here and need to go some where I can heal but not sure where that is?? All I know for sure is that my boys love me more than anything else and that no matter what I will always have them to fall back on. Kadyn is so sweet, when I found out that I was no longer moving to Montana I was outside bawling and he came up to me and sat on my life and held me when I cryed. I don't know how I am going to get through yet another disapointment in my life, but somehow I have to for my babies!!! I hope one of these days I catch a break, just hope I can make it to that day!!

Yepee!! Kadyn riding his bike!!

So my mom got a bike from a guy at her work for Kadyn and he LOVES it!! I didn't even have to help him he just got right on and took off!! Although it does have training wheels on it I am sure those will be off in no time. He sometimes has trouble watching were he is going and had two crashes. Both times he landed on his feet got back up and said, "that didn't even hurt Mom". I am so proud of him he is my little champ!!! Oh yeah and Colton took a little ride in my moms basket.

BIG scarry changes!!

So I have made some really big decisions over the past few days. About a week ago I was fed up with everything here, so I called Becki and told here that I am just going to up and leave to Montana. Well I prayed about things that night and asked for guidance and peace of mind. Well a couple of days past and lots of crazy things happen one thing lead to another and I am moving to Montana!!! Yeah I know I totally sound crazy. But to tell you the truth I have not had peace of mind about ANYTHING through all this time that everything has been going on with me and Nick as I do now. It just feels so right, and everything is just falling into place. I already have a house over there and probably a job. Things here are just too painful and the memories are too much for me right now. I think it will be great for the kids to have there cousins back in their life. Everything has been rip out from under them their house they were use to, all there friends, and their dad. They are just so confused and need there mom to be sound and secure and this is the best way possible. Kadyn will start preschool as soon as we get there and Austin will start next year. The kids don't really understand anything that is going on I am just trying to make sure that they always know that their mom and dad love them so much. Taking the kids far away from Nick will be the hardest thing that I have ever had to do!!!!! I will probably cry the whole trip there and for weeks after I get there. The only thing that is going to get me through it and help me to see that this is what is best is when I start to heal. It has been three months since everything happened with me and Nick and I am still hurting just as much as the first day it all happened. I can't heal here there is just way to much DRAMA and resentful feelings. I will miss everyone here so very much and will be very excited when I get to make trips back to Oregon. You have all been such a great support system through this all, and I want everyone to know that I could not have gotten through these last 3 months without you. I love you and will miss you all!!!!

Thank you!!!

Thank you to my loyal commenters (not sure if that is a word) Emily and Stacy!! You guys are great at least I know two people always read my blog so it is not all for nothing. Hope you are both doing good I miss both of you, you are great people!

Wildlife Safari

So my mom and I wanted to do something fun with the boys today and couldn't think of anything that was close and something we had never done. We racked our brains all day Friday and finally thought of the Wildlife Safari just pass Canyonville. If you haven't been there you need to go!! It was AWESOME!! The kids loved it and it was just as cool for us adults. Although it is a bit pricey it is well worth the drive and the price. It is on 600 acres and has hundreds of animals, pretty much anything you can think of they have there. You drive in your car and it takes you through all the animals, it takes like an hour and a half. Most of the animals roam free there are very few that are locked up in gates. And those animals that are locked up I am thankful that they are, (lions, cheetahs, tigers, and elephants). As for the bears they are in a really big caged in area that you get to drive through, (with your windows up). The best part for me and I think the boys was towards the end there are a bunch of cranes and two of them came right up to our window. One of them actually put his head inside our window I think he was trying to eat the boys. They thought it was SO COOL and were not afraid at all, well maybe Austin was a little. As you can see I have no pictures of this great adventure that we went on today, of course my camera had to break and my mom didn't bring hers. Well maybe next time we will get some cool pictures to show for our trip. Oh yeah and the kids got to ride a train, of course Kadyn's favorite part of the day!! It was a long day and the kids are tired so my motherly duties call! If I think of anymore things I will post them latter.

HELP

Please if you know why my blog has those funny little things that look like little tools will you please help me get them off. Also I went to put a new background on and only like the middle part is showing it is like it is a 12x12 layout for only an 8x11 page. PLEASE HELP this is going to drive me crazy!!

LONG STORY!!

Okay so this is a really really long story that I don't feel telling once again so I am going to make it short. My car that I got up in Portland like 3 weeks ago the financing fell through so I had to give the car back. Well at the time I thought of course would you please kick me when I am already down that would be really great of you. That is all I needed was to lose my car too haven't I lost enough? Well now looking back on things, now that I have my new new car I think maybe it was really a blessing that I lost the other car. This new car I got I LOVE even more and I also love that it was 3,000 bucks less!!! Plus it is a year newer than the other one, did I mention that I love it!!!! Well I guess it is just a life lesson I learned from a car. It is not the end of the world if you lose something you love, maybe you lose it because there is something that will fit you better out there just waiting for you. Things are going go for me and the kids the future everyday looks better and better. I am thankful for everything I have in my life and am learning that there is life after all and that I am going to be okay no matter where my life takes me. All I have to do is keep the Lord first in my life and he will always make sure my kids and I are taken care of! I love you all!

Who are you?

You Are Ariel!

Headstrong and fiesty. You have a mind of your own that's full of romantic dreams about the world around you. Exploring exotic places is your ultimate dream, and although you can be a little naive you'll realize that there is something to be gained from your family's wisdom.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

I thought this was pretty cool! I don't think it could have said it better about the type of Princess I am, what do you think?

Update........

So I am starting school this Fall. I am entering into this program for singal moms called "moving on". The help me out with all different kinds of things having to do with school. The class is two days a week for all of Fall term, it will be the only class I have and then come winter term I will start in my classes I need to take to get into the LPN program. I am really excited and think it will be really good for me to go to school. I will keep everyone updated on what is happening.

Batman and Robin

Have you ever wanted to know who the real Batman and Robin are??? Well they live in a tiny house in a little town called Grants Pass. Don't tell anyone but there real names are Kadyn and Austin. SHHHH.... it will be our little secert!

Pushing my buttons!

Okay so Colton is a little turd!!! He thinks it is a game to see how many times he can take his diaper off and how many times mommy will put it back on!! He did it like 5 times this morning and I finally gave in a let him run around naked!

Tiny litle room and!!

So we moved into my moms house. It is tiny compared to what I just moved from. Although I share a tiny little room with my three boys I am so grateful to my mom and her willingness to let us bombard her house. I think secretly she is kinda excited we are here. It is defiantly a change of pace for her. I am hoping to get my own place in the next few months, keep your fingers crossed for us!! For now here is our tiny little room, poor Colton has to sleep in the closet.

Cookie Face

Colton got a hold of a cookie when I was making cookies today. Instead of letting him roam all over my Mom's house with it I put him in his highchair. To say the least he had a fun time! He was acting like he was the coolest baby in the world because he got a yummy cookie! I couldn't help myself took way too many pictures of him!! He is WAY too cute for his own good!! And such a happy little guy!

I got a new car!!!!!!

I got a new car about a week ago! I love it so much!! It is a 2003 Saturn Vue and I got it all be myself!!! I needed something that has great gas miliage but still had enough room for 3 carseats!! This is perfect for us, and the kids love it too!!!